Saddest Day Ever

Woke up middle of the night starting to think bout you. Sigh I really don't know what I did to make you hate me to the max. Like seriously what did I do? Can't u just tell me? and talk to me bout it? Rather than throwing all the vulgar language to me.):
I don't know. Maybe you don't need me now. I understand you the most, and I swear I'll give you the best if you give me one last chance. You just dumped me for no reason and suddenly you told me that we could be friends like we use to be but now. See what's happening. You totally igonored me and scold me off in a nasty way. I forgive you and love you no matter what. Seriously, I'll never give up on you. All the best in your life.
I cry for you almost every moment thinking bout you. Hope that you'll feel happy everyday.
Gosh. Was watching football, not even 15mins I feel asleep. Wtf.
Then I dreamt bout you and I had during the past. movies, laughters, jokes, tears and joy. I remember every single thing we went through. I'm sorry if I really did something wrong. Can you forgive me?If not I'll feel bad bout it and so.
Urgh. I don't know what to do besides thinking bout you and loving you. Please give me that chance I beg you. I told you you're the one and I'm not making a joke out of it.
Sigh. I'll do anything as long as to be a fren of yours.
Take care Bp.ILY
Well, I went to McD with an idiot which is having the same feeling as me now. Pity him. But I don't really know how to help win. We talked bout life and stuff. He wanted to buy wax to wax his stupid hair.LAWL.Bro just follow the flow. Everything's gonan be alright if u make the right decision. Fuck her?Go back for her. Or Ditch her.that's all
But don't go too over the board. Like I did. Regret after doin in?Pointless.
Learn from mistakes like I do.
But one thing is Don't ever give up easily.(; Fight for it!
Went home, online and dota all day long.
Went out with schoolmates and some church friends to ABC to Shisha.
I hate shisha nowadays. No idea. It causes heart attack. so yea.
I wanna stop smoking badly.)': Opps. Again and again and again.-.-
After that, we went to top two with some friends.(;
Stupid Puven and Sean ffk. assholes.
First game I lost to dennis bout 15marks.
But the second game I beat him by 40marks.(:
I'm so bored of life without you. You gave me empty promises too.
I know I disappointed you but at least give me another chance?I really will change and be a better person.I'm not like other guys. I'm me I'm loyal and I'll never give up. Can't you just trust me and give it a try.?Is it a big risk to take?Sigh.
No matter how you treat me. I'll still love you.
Take care.
BP <3